Matthew 10:18–20
But when they deliver you up, do not worry about how or what you should speak. For it will be given to you in that hour what you should speak; for it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father who speaks in you.
Trying to do this blog on my own has been difficult to start, I have never been this open about my private life especially in a public setting where my every word could will be scrutinized. Leave it to God to put me in a place where my life will be written down in words for everyone to read and share. Where I have no control with who I share or who gets to read it. It’s scary but I must be obedient to God and start this blog, all for His glory.
And yes, I laughed when God gave me this assignment to write a blog where I would share my testimony. Funny of Him to ask me to do this after I spent years hiding my past but as John 8:32 says, and you will now the truth, and the truth will set you free. This verse talks about Jesus and I believe that when we are open and truthful about our past it sets us free for God to do the healing so that we can live out what we were destined to do for the Kingdom of God. I also know in sharing my truth, it will help mother’s who have battled insecurity, overcome abuse and who struggle with connecting with their daughter’s who have gone the wrong path.
I found the love of my life in my mid 30’s after I had given up on dating and had decided that I was not going to date. I was working at City Hall during the day and I waitressed in the evenings at the local lodge in my hometown when John walked into my life. That day I was not suppose to be waitressing but I still went to hang out with a friend and help out. John was there for the annual golf tournament and he was the first one I offered a drink to. He said no, but asked me if I was from around there and I said yes and I asked him where he was from. To this day I still laugh about the question because he was dressed in full Houston gear, red Houston shirt and cap leaving no question where he was from. and like a true lady, I didn’t give him the time of day until later that evening. lol. He followed me to the bar and kept asking questions wouldn’t leave me alone..that evening I found out that he had a son and his birthday was one day after my daughter’s birthday. What were the odds.
After that night we didn’t talk for weeks, and only after my friend contacted his friend on Facebook because she wanted to know why he wouldn’t call me back. I was not looking to see him again but my friend insisted we needed to know why he would just leave and not call, no text just like he fell off the earth. When we finally connected, I found out he had been in the hospital from drinking and gotten so sick that following morning after we had met that he did not finish the tournament. I should have ran and not looked back but there was something about him that I couldn’t resist.
to be continued …….
GP